People who have never had a weight issue often wonder why other people choose to get fat?! well I am here to tell you lucky people it is actually not a conscious choice. for me food is similar to a drug when I feel any emotion I eat its my "feel better go to" for some that's booze or drugs or even exercise. Also like any eating disorder it can be about control. for me its all of these, I need to decide what I eat and when because if you tell me I can't have it I will sure as shit want it, weather I like it or not... I will be in control,and those of you who know me know this about me. For some the weight just kinda creeps on without the person even noticing!. a few ( quite a few) years ago I lost 80 pounds and I kept it off for close to 5 years Things in my life started to fall apart and my weight just seemed to creep back up until now I have gained the weight back plus another hundred and let me tell you it feels awesome... NOT! Some of the things I dealt with in the past few years , many moves, chronic depression diagnosis, my 20 year ( abusive) marriage ending, a midlife crisis and subsequent move to England, homelessness, losing a son, a new marriage, losing my career, and quiting smoking. As you see some of these things are very tragic and some are very happy but all cause stress and my drug of choice is food. please don't get me wrong, I don't blame anyone or thing for my weight it really is my fault that I am fat its just that I want to show what happens to some people that can't handle stress well or don't have the tools to handle it any other way. my sister Rose once said to me when I had lost that weight and spouting off all my vast wisdom on weight loss." I know the rules I am just not ready to follow them". that my friends is it in a nutshell, I knew the rules I just wasn't ready to follow
them , I am now.
This picture has nothing to do with todays blog I just think its cool that I held a snake and was smiling while doing so
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