I have spent many years of my life running from things and hoping they would go away. They don't and in fact many get worse. I ran to England when my marriage ended, I ran to Dawson when I felt that I had burned all my bridges in Alberta and was about to run when Mat died but then I met Tony and I stayed. My regrets about the choosing to run to England are so many that I am ashamed to talk about it. Moving to Dawson was also a mistake, because I believe I could have changed many things that happened after I moved. But had I not moved I never would have met Tony. this summer I felt like quiting my job everyday but didn't I couldn't afford it for one but I also needed to learn to stay and not run at the first sign of things getting uncomfortable. I learned a lot about myself from this, and have changed my outlook on life immensely. I have started and gave up on weight loss so many times in the past that I can't count I have lived in denial of the weight I was gaining,I am at at point where all I wear is black stretchy pants and really big shirts I can't bend over to tie my shoes so I tie them just enough that I can slide into them. my weight had reached an all time high of 316 pounds just before Christmas. I
Today I reached my first weight loss goal, to be under 300 pounds. It felt good and it felt bad, good because I did it and bad because I had to do it!
the first time I lost weight ,I am the one in the jean shorts. I still have the shorts I am hoping they fit me by next summer.
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